yep im pissed

[Mouse]

The one thing I wanted to do when I was in NC was get a tattoo. We were supposed to go this summer when he was up here and get ink together and it didn't happen. And we were supposed to go this past week and hey that didn't happen either.
I call him tonight like he told me to and he says that he got a new tattoo. Not only that but he got a new matching f'in tattoo with the girl he is out in Ca visiting. And he was like "I didn't want to tell you because I figured you'd get pissed. But she drew this gnarly tattoo and we went and got it done." WTF of course I am pissed off about it! Not only do I feel hurt that he wouldn't even go with me, he didnt even want to tell me about going with her. Maybe it seems a stupid thing to be angry over but he may as well have screwed her as far as I'm concerned. It's that big of a deal to me.
And the worst part is I couldn't even get my mouth to work to tell him how mad that made me. I didn't say a thing about it. Now instead of going to bed being happy I'm going to bed fuming and shaking. I wish I hadn't called him. That's a first that I actually wish I hadn't called him.

[ReginaCherie]

oh honey im so sorry i would be pissed too. try not to think to much about it. is he still in Cali. ill go beat his ass for you!

[Lana]

Yeaaah....I'd be angry, too. Sometimes guys can do stupid childish behavior. Just try to talk it out tomorrow with him. Explain how you're feeling calmly. Don't yell or freak. Never gets you anywhere.

[Mouse]

I dont want to talk to him at all for a while. He bailed out to go to Cali and didnt tell me. Then he pulls this on top of it. There is so much more to it that I just cant go into. But Im totally fed up with being pushed to the side. I've let it go until now but it seems like thats just how its gonna be. Im always goin to be off to one side and hes gonna do what he wants while I just sit here and patiently wait. screw that.
If I try to talk to him tomorrow Im gonna say somethin totally stupid that I will regret. Better to just not talk to him for a couple days.

[ReginaCherie]

im glad your being smart about it. just let it cool down then talk to him.

[Lana]

I know he's younger than you. Just give him time to mature. Iraq is a REALLY good maturing agent. I know Nick left here and we had a ton of problems with him being immature and things like that. Now, we've never been better and he's never been more serious and loving. Time away from the world puts things in perspective. Give it time.

[ReginaCherie]

listen to lana she is very smart.

[~SaBrInA_lEiGh~]

hey love i know weve talked about this before but seriously is he still out here i will go to every bar and scope his ass out and beat his ass and scratch up her tattoo so bad you wont be able to tell its matching...lol... i love you you know where o find me if you need something

[Lisa]

Wow Mouse I don't blame you I would be LIVID!!! That is not okay and I understand guys do stupid things without thinking but this is an F'in tattoo that will be on his body for the rest of his life and you're going to get pissed every time you look at it so I think you're being REALLY SMART in just not talking to him for a few days!

I'm so sorry! If you need anything at all PM me!

[Nuky Loves Nue]

I don't blame you at all for getting pissed about it. I would be so livid I would not be able to see straight. I honestly don't know what I would do if Jere did something like that (other than really want to kill him). It would definitely put a damper on our relationship. Just like Lisa said, you will have to look at this tattoo for everytime he is around you. This is a permanent thing. I would definitely figure out what it is you want to say to him before you talk to him. I don't know you that well, but I can tell you are a very intelligent woman. Whatever happens you know we are here for you. I really hope everything works out.

:bighug: :bighug:

[Christy]

Wow..that is crappy. Sorry girlie! I agree, not talking to him is a good thing. Let yourself cool down and then collect your thoughts. :bighug:

[Mouse]

Thank you everyone. He text me today while I was at work. I told him to have a good flight and I would talk to him later but I didnt respond to anything else he sent. I am still so pissed that I start shaking everytime I think about it. Honestly it made my workday excrutiating. I left an hour early cause I was so sick to my stomach.
I really don't know what to do with this. Or even what I want to say to him. I just don't know anymore. I want to be with him but I have already wasted 7 years being in a miserable relationship where I was second rate. I refuse to do it again.
I just don't even know.

[Lana]

I'm telling you Give it time. Nick and I had this SAME problem. He was always putting other things before me. And he left for Iraq and suddenly I was the only person in his world. It puts things in perspective. They can be stupid and unthinking. Just have to learn to intelligently tell them how we're feeling without attacking them.

[Kathryn]

Lana is right..just give it time...everything will work out!!!

[Belinda]

Awh, hon!
:bighug::bighug:
Just remember that men take a LOT longer to grow up than we women do. Therefore they do stupid things that we have to yell at them for. I hear rumors that they do eventually grow out of it though...hopefully soon.

[Mouse]

Well I hung out with my best friend and soon to be (hopefully) sister in law tonight. We talked about all this stuff and I;m just kinda here waiting for him to call me. I know I said I wasn't gonna talk to him but I feel like if I wait any longer it will cause permanent damage.
Jen and I talked about a lot of the stuff that has happened since Tom and I started this thing. And honestly I am just as lost as before. The only things that I know for sure are that I want to spend my life with him and that most of the time he doesn't realize the hurt he causes.
So I guess wish me luck when we talk tonight. Hopefully there is a very good reason why he is acting the way he is. Otherwise I will be one of the few non-military girls on here. If you girls let me stay that is. lol!

[ReginaCherie]

your always welcome to me! honey you have to talk to him. you cant let these things happen and not say anything you dont want to be misrable the rest of your life. im here if you need me.

[~SaBrInA_lEiGh~]

ahh mouse... i love you first of and second talk to him youll be fine the two things you know for sure now is all that matters guys are super stupid right before they leave and maybe hes a lil worried hell loose you to waiting... it is your first deployment.. i know youll wait for the sky to fall for that man and im sure he will know this to in time im sure hes just scarred and to manly to admit this but hunny if the worst does happen im here and you are always welcome in my life and on here

[snwalways41903]

im so sorry hun, thats nuts id be very upset about it to, its good your taking a few days to calm down, again im so sorry!

[KristiMarie]

Dont you hate when you are so angry you cant even speak... like you wish they just knew how much it hurt you???


Sorry girl. Hope things get better!

[Mouse]

Oh girls I messed up. I got tanked and called him last night. I dont even know half of what I said but he hung up on me. I asked him if everything was ok between us. I told him that the way he has been acting makes me think it's not. I also told him that my kids are mixed up in this mess and that if he ever hurt them I would kill him. (oops) And then I dunno. I started crying and can't really remember but he was being a total ass. Then he hung up on me.
So I sent him a text. It basically said that I was angry and hurt and that I only tried to talk to him about it so it wouldn't turn into a huge thing. That I was sorry I made him mad and that I loved him and I was goin to bed.
Which of course made him call me back. And he started yelling about me hanging up on him. I said something to the effect of when have I EVER hung up on you. When for that matter have I EVER missed a call from you and not called RIGHT back. When have I ever put anything besides my kids before you. And...well then I passed out. Ugh.
I got a couple texts from him today but I don't know if he understands what I was trying to say last night at all.
I'm really starting to think that all of this is him trying to distance himself from me before he leaves. I think he is starting to tweak that maybe I won't wait. But who knows. In the meantime I'm just gonna keep trying to sort it out. And I gotta stop drunk dialing lol

[KristiMarie]

drunk dialing is never good girl. Hope you guys get everything worked out!