littleurban
06-23-2009, 01:39 PM
So after 3 wks I received an e-mail from Matt saying he was busy and then haven't heard from him yet. Well I sent him an e-mail yesterday just letting him know that I received it and got one last night that just said nothing was going on the ship and they were still floating around and that it was boring; (not addressing the letter).
I sent him an e-mail this morning just asking him if he could please let me know what he thought after reading it and this is what it said.
Sure. I’m not scared of my upcoming deployment and I don’t see this as taking the easy way out but I’m not going to be in a relationship in which I see someone twice in an 18 month timeframe. That just won’t work. I’m sure you’re more than willing to make things work, you obviously are willing to make the effort but I’m not convinced that I’m ready or able to be in this situation for so long. Also, I’m definitely re-enlisting and have no plans to do any kind of “non-deployable” job, so it’s not like this is a one time thing which eventually be over. We’ll be continuing to go to Iraq and Afghanistan until we pull out and after that if there’s nowhere to go we’ll continue to be on ships. It just doesn’t work.
I can see how you think it’s the easy way out, and if you think that cutting it off early before this gets dragged out over two or three deployments then you’re right. I don’t like considering this the “easy” way out because it’s not easy but that’s just how I see it and that’s what I’ve decided.
Hope that answers everything.
I guess I just don't know what to think at this point. I mean I can see where he is coming from and maybe since I just read it now I'm more emotional... I just think it was kinda cold hearted..I don't know. I basically poured my heart on in that letter which is something that I don't normally do. I think it was the whole everything he said to me--all the good stuff--all his comments and then bam it's an oops changed my mind, what I told you a couple of days ago just forget it.
I respect his decision and what not but it's just don't tell me things would have worked out and how good we are together, how he likes "us", how I should let my guard all the way down because he isn't going anywhere, how his gut says it's right... I don't know. I don't know what to think.. I don't know what to do. I'm lost.:waterworks:
I don't even know what to respond back, I don't want too but think I should??
Sorry this is so long! I'm in the lab at school and tears are just rolling down! :tissue: I mean I haven't dated since I came out of my 5yr relationship and the second I fall for someone my heart just gets ripped out! damn me for bbelieving him!:tear:
It's offical my heart is locked up and the key is thrown away!
I sent him an e-mail this morning just asking him if he could please let me know what he thought after reading it and this is what it said.
Sure. I’m not scared of my upcoming deployment and I don’t see this as taking the easy way out but I’m not going to be in a relationship in which I see someone twice in an 18 month timeframe. That just won’t work. I’m sure you’re more than willing to make things work, you obviously are willing to make the effort but I’m not convinced that I’m ready or able to be in this situation for so long. Also, I’m definitely re-enlisting and have no plans to do any kind of “non-deployable” job, so it’s not like this is a one time thing which eventually be over. We’ll be continuing to go to Iraq and Afghanistan until we pull out and after that if there’s nowhere to go we’ll continue to be on ships. It just doesn’t work.
I can see how you think it’s the easy way out, and if you think that cutting it off early before this gets dragged out over two or three deployments then you’re right. I don’t like considering this the “easy” way out because it’s not easy but that’s just how I see it and that’s what I’ve decided.
Hope that answers everything.
I guess I just don't know what to think at this point. I mean I can see where he is coming from and maybe since I just read it now I'm more emotional... I just think it was kinda cold hearted..I don't know. I basically poured my heart on in that letter which is something that I don't normally do. I think it was the whole everything he said to me--all the good stuff--all his comments and then bam it's an oops changed my mind, what I told you a couple of days ago just forget it.
I respect his decision and what not but it's just don't tell me things would have worked out and how good we are together, how he likes "us", how I should let my guard all the way down because he isn't going anywhere, how his gut says it's right... I don't know. I don't know what to think.. I don't know what to do. I'm lost.:waterworks:
I don't even know what to respond back, I don't want too but think I should??
Sorry this is so long! I'm in the lab at school and tears are just rolling down! :tissue: I mean I haven't dated since I came out of my 5yr relationship and the second I fall for someone my heart just gets ripped out! damn me for bbelieving him!:tear:
It's offical my heart is locked up and the key is thrown away!