Laura
02-16-2009, 12:27 AM
i don't know what to think or how to feel right about now.
mark txted me tonight...the first time we've talked since we broke up
months ago.... first it was kinda angry asking why my mom was talking
shit about him in public....and i was just like i have no idea
what you are talking about mark.... and he said
"in front of my family i know i was a dick but that was
the only way either of us ould move on if not we prolly
would have gotten back together and been in a bad relationship
so i see why you and your parents hate me but they don't have
to trash talk me in public..."
L: i have no idea what you are talking about mark what did she say?
L: but you can be angry at me all you want i have no idea
what you are talking about and i was just trying to be civil about
things and just see how your doing but oh well
M: is that really what your doing?
L: swear to god you burned me and i got over it and have actually
been going out and having fun and enjoying life and i thought as a friend
i would see how you were doing ya know be mature about things
not acting like we're 12 lol
M: im not acting like im 12 i just don't want you to think anything else
i was a dick i did something shitty i know that im sorry it took me so long
to know what i wanted and im sorry you got hurt
L: its ok ya im sorry it took you so long to realize it wasn't what you
wanted but we both deserve to be happy and not live a lie...but anyways
M: what do you mean live a lie?
L: if you weren't happy pretending to be... if that makes sense
not sure if it does but ya haha
M: i wasn't even pretending i was unhappy you could see that
and you thought you had to change who you were so i left
L: ya i was unhappy too i was having a really rough time not gonna
lie so it wasn't best for either of us
L: but anyways hows life been for you?
M: good im getting promoted i passed the board how about you?
L: oh good im glad to hear that! so you'll be a what now? ive been
really really good gotten my shit figured out and applying at a high up
salon in rapid... i go in for my second interview tomorrow and im
super stoked just busy doing school two jobs and partying on
the weekends...
thats how our conversation has gone so far.....
i tell myself i am over him then he pops up and i start to question
whether i really am.... just cuz i have never had that connection with
anyone else that we had...... and ya i know its not whats best for me
but we were together for so long and he was my best friend we went
thru a lot together........
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn boys......:confused::confused::confused:
mark txted me tonight...the first time we've talked since we broke up
months ago.... first it was kinda angry asking why my mom was talking
shit about him in public....and i was just like i have no idea
what you are talking about mark.... and he said
"in front of my family i know i was a dick but that was
the only way either of us ould move on if not we prolly
would have gotten back together and been in a bad relationship
so i see why you and your parents hate me but they don't have
to trash talk me in public..."
L: i have no idea what you are talking about mark what did she say?
L: but you can be angry at me all you want i have no idea
what you are talking about and i was just trying to be civil about
things and just see how your doing but oh well
M: is that really what your doing?
L: swear to god you burned me and i got over it and have actually
been going out and having fun and enjoying life and i thought as a friend
i would see how you were doing ya know be mature about things
not acting like we're 12 lol
M: im not acting like im 12 i just don't want you to think anything else
i was a dick i did something shitty i know that im sorry it took me so long
to know what i wanted and im sorry you got hurt
L: its ok ya im sorry it took you so long to realize it wasn't what you
wanted but we both deserve to be happy and not live a lie...but anyways
M: what do you mean live a lie?
L: if you weren't happy pretending to be... if that makes sense
not sure if it does but ya haha
M: i wasn't even pretending i was unhappy you could see that
and you thought you had to change who you were so i left
L: ya i was unhappy too i was having a really rough time not gonna
lie so it wasn't best for either of us
L: but anyways hows life been for you?
M: good im getting promoted i passed the board how about you?
L: oh good im glad to hear that! so you'll be a what now? ive been
really really good gotten my shit figured out and applying at a high up
salon in rapid... i go in for my second interview tomorrow and im
super stoked just busy doing school two jobs and partying on
the weekends...
thats how our conversation has gone so far.....
i tell myself i am over him then he pops up and i start to question
whether i really am.... just cuz i have never had that connection with
anyone else that we had...... and ya i know its not whats best for me
but we were together for so long and he was my best friend we went
thru a lot together........
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn boys......:confused::confused::confused: