So Confused...Don't know what to do...

[Jessie.Rose]

today when we went to look at the apartment...its the second time we've been stood up at one....we even called the guy and he said he was there, but nobody would answer the door :(...well Jamie said "i give up...we're not lookin anymore"....and I know i kept tellin him I'd be ok living here, I'd do it for us...and that I wanted to quick looking to make him happy....even though i really HATE living here....and he knows it....so of course we kept looking (he wants an apartment to make me happy, i want to stay here to make him happy and netiher of us wants to give in......until now)...and I'm not gonna lie I'm really upset....Im not crying cuz it will hurt him..and I'm not gonna fight with him cuz again it will hurt him....but seriously if we quick looking I might have to move back home with my mom and dad cuz thats how much I hate living here. we dont even have our own bathroom....we share with his sister (who i love) but we have a tiny bedroom, we live across the hall from miranda, we are living out of boxes cuz we have nowhere to actually unpack our stuff too....and I really can't take it here anymore...all i want is my own kitchen, bathroom and SPACE...and with 5 people, 2 dogs, and a cat, I dont have it. and my computer is dead so i have to use the main family computer room and bah....i have to stop typing and venting cuz its gettin me in tears and I CANNOT cry in front of him again over this....im done....

[Jessie.Rose]

Oh and one more thing....frickin ES shows up every day to use computers as well....and I REALLY can't stand that....she invades the little space i have! she kicked us out now she needs to leave us the hell alone! i dont care if it IS her parents house

[Jessie.Rose]

OK so I just got pushed over the edge......im 99.9% sure miranda is wearing my fav. tank under a dif. shirt.....I saw it..and I know she has it in black cuz she wore it yesterday....so I went to search the laundry for it cuz i just put it in the wash yesterday or 2 days ago...and all the clothes we washed are hanging or in the dryer...but I cant find that one!!!!!!!!!!! WTF...I TOLD JAMIE HE BEST FIX IT OR ILL BE GONE!

[Kira]

Well your apartment hunting sound like it is going as well as mine..I hope you find something soon!

[Jessie.Rose]

Except for the fact I have no money and Jamie gave up....I seriously will go back into my depression if I stay in this house! I'm terrified of that...but I haven't went a single day without crying since we have been here...and I hate crying in front of jamie

[Kira]

I feel you. I have hated living here 2 years that I have, my anxiety has got worse since I have lived here.

We can't even go above a certain amount without going broke so our options are limited and that isn't helping our situation.

Don't give up, I almost did when I was looking for my first apartment when I was pregnant with Donovan. I had no place to live and was sleeping at hotels, DH's car, my MIL's couch it was horrible it took a long time for me to finally find someone who would rent to us.

[Jessie.Rose]

Yeah money is def not the problem for us but to rent with a german shepherd is a whole nother ball park...
We looked into buying but that's not going anywhere either. So I dunno I am so pissed off cuz Miranda denied to Jamie that it was my shirt and said her mom bought it for her but her mom didn't remember what she bought her and I've searched every room ok ours and laundry and no luck!

[Danie]

What a cow!!! I can't stand people who lie, or take things that aren't theirs. It's rude, and deceitful... Hope you guys find a place you can agree on. Keep looking... Get a paper this weekend, circle a bunch, call a bunch, and look at a bunch, eventually he will give in and agree on anything!!! Hope it works dear!!!!

[ReginaCherie]

im sorry honey. i know how you feel ive been there but you cant give up. jamie should understand that your happyness matters too. if you can go look by your self and when you find a place take jamie later.

[Jessie.Rose]

Yeah except Jamie is the only one who makes any money...or I'd get a place on my own and say Jamie visit me when you want

[Jessie.Rose]

Omg I'm so upset I wanna puke...I locked myself in the bathroom and don't want to leave cuz now its me and Miranda fightin and I hate it! Jamie walked in my room threw a shirt at me and said here's your shirt....I look at it and its a grey Lacey striped tank....the one she was wearing OVER my blue halter that ties on the side and has pockets....big difference and he said well that's the one she gave me! Um no hunnie wrong move.....I'm so tempted to call work and say I have a family emergency and go home for a week..... But I don't really want to leave Jamie so I'm between a rock and a hard place :(

[Mouse]

I know it's the principle behind it but if it were me I would just let it go for now. Start doing your laundry at a laundrymat and then she cant take your stuff. I'd also keep lookin for places. Let things cool down and then when she'snot home go into her room and take your shirt back. lol Hope it gets better but dont let her upset you or cause a fight with you and your boy. Otherwise she wins.

[Jessie.Rose]

i love the girl to death...and of course because of the situation im in i make a big deal bout everything...i texted her about it and i got NO reply and i came upstairs and she gave me a death glare....I might be going home to mom and dads for a while to decide what needs to change here if im ever gonna be happy.....and i walked out of the bathroom into our bedroom and jamie got me flowers a beautiful boquet...and i started just bawling....

[Danie]

Awww... I'm so sorry dear. I hate when family just can't respect those that live in the same house. I remember you saying something about your MIL being particular about laundry, but what about taking your laundry to a laundry mat. That will alleviate a lot of your problem from 2 fronts. it will give you and Jamie some time alone too... even if it is at a laundry mat... those are some fun times!!! I'm glad he got you some flowers! That was very thoughtful of him.

[Jessie.Rose]

yeah ive thought about it but id have to find a very cheap laundromat cuz i dont have the money...though it would only be mine jamie likes the way his mom does laundry....but none of his stuff ever gets ruined or stolen....so yeah we will be living here....we are turning the basement into an apartment....and i will be either waiting and takin my laundry once every 2-3 weeks to my moms when i drive to visit....or going to a laundramat....

[Danie]

You can do it, and really, why can't you do your own laundry... it's a simple request living there...

[Jessie.Rose]

cuz shes constantly doing laundry!!! and now that joes unemployed hes doing it when shes not home!!! it SUCKS....

[Cortnie DeNise]

I hope things look up...just hang in there. When you need to get out of the house...get out. Take a walk or something. Have you tried having a sit down talk with them?

[Jessie.Rose]

No I want to talk it out on what all needs to change with Jamie first....then we will talk to them together

[Christy]

I hope you get it worked out Jessie! :bighug: