we're all trying to get into the fight before the fight is over.....

[littleurban]

is the e-mail I got from Matt this morning! I sent him an e-mail that said yay for you coming home in 2-1\2 months!! his reply:

"Yep. I'm trying to get to Afganistan ASAP though!"
"I'm trying to get into a unit that is going there asap. not every unit in the Marine Corps is going there. We're all trying to get into the fight before the fight is over"

I sent him a response back that just said he was crazy and when he would find out if he was someone that could go or not.... his reply:

basically said how he wasn't sure date wise but this really upset me:

"If I could step off the boat in San Diego and onto a plane to Afgan. I would.
Nothing like a boring float to make you want to get some Tailban"

I had no idea how to respond to that so I didn't!! I think I am just upset because he makes it sound like he really doesn't care about us! I mean seriously, here I am saying how excited I am too see him and he is like if I could the second I get back I will!!! Maybe I'm just upset because I took a train to ND today and am just tired, that and the fact I've been sick for the last couple of months and he finally talked me into telling him what was up...so I did and that's the e-mail I get!

I just had to get that off my chest! I just feel like crying and screaming! I have no idea what to say to that...I hope you get to go?? I'm just thinking what about us!! Will I be able to handle it if he goes?? I don't know ladies...I'm lost and have no idea what to think or do.

I do understand that he is in the mindset to fight and this is what he really wants to do...but I don't know.

Thanks for listening.

[Meredith]

I think they all feel like that until they actually get there. It's not everything it's cracked up to be. I'm sorry he's trying to get himself shipped out again so quickly. I highly doubt it has anything to do with you...more the fact that he feels the need to use his skills as a marine in country instead of on a ship. Mike always tells me it's more exciting to be somewhere when he can actually utilize his training instead of actually training but the reality of it all sucks...

I'll cross my fingers he winds up stuck state side for you! Nothing worse than them getting home from one deployment just to learn of another.

[Mouse]

My boy has been saying the same thing. I sorta understand where he is coming from. This is what he is trained to do and it sucks being out in the middle of no where staring at sand dunes for 12 hours at a whack. He is signing up for a volunteer deployment and he is hoping that he goes to Afgahnistan.
I dont really know what to tell you girl except that this is what they are trained for, hyped up for. I know it really sucks that he said that, just try to take it with a grain of salt. I'm sure all the guys in his unit are saying the same stuff.

[KristiMarie]

its drilled into their heads... GI JOE mode... but like mere said once they get there... not really what anyone expects...

[Cortnie DeNise]

He is in military mode. I'm not sure what exactly to say to him..maybe if that will help your career then go for it, or if thats what makes you happy. IDK maybe just leave it alone. I'm sure you were prob expecting a diff kind of response, but try to just let this one go. :bighug:

[ReginaCherie]

wow honey that sucks. i dont know what to tell you cause scotts not like that. but its probably cause im home and hes already missed so much of rylies life. i mean hes willing to switch bases if he gets put in a unit that will ship him out again soon.

so this is what i got. try not to take to it hard. they are REALLY bored out there. their marines on a ship. they dont do anything the navy does all the work on ship. he just wants to feel like hes doing somthing i dont think it has anything to do with not wanting to be with you. but im sorry this is all happening. you know how to get ahold of me if you wanna talk.

[MrsJoey]

i agree with everyone else. my hubs said some of the same crap- not really about WANTING to go fight but he did say he was ready to get over there, for him though it was more 'i just wanna get it over with' he'd already been on one deployment before so knew what he was getting himself into.
theyre trained, brainwashed-this is what theyre SUPPOSED todo. so dont take it personal,as hard as that is bc i KNOW i did when he was sayin he couldnt wait to get over there and i was thinkin 'i dont even want you to go period! i want you to stay here!'

everything hes saying,and everything youre feeling is normal. its hard to know what to say. hang in there girl!

[Kathryn]

Aww hunny I'm sorry. I agree with the other girls..he's bored being on a ship and is wanting action bc like everyone has said, that's what they are trained to do. I remember I told Justin a few weeks ago that I was very proud of him and everything and he says "thanks baby...even though I'm not doing much here.." They are itching for something exciting. Just try to let it go and don't let it get to you :) I also hope he gets stuck state side for a loooong time just for you!

[littleurban]

Thanks ladies:) I'm trying to type this on the crack berry lol. I know he is really bored on the ship and he really wants to fight...it upsets me that he made it sound like he really doesn't care about me...just bc I hadn't heard from him in a couple days and that's all it said..maybe if he would have just said miss you, anythi
Anything. Thanks so much ladies for responding! Writing on the berry sucks I need to find a computer. Lol

[Kathryn]

haha...i know waht you mean! I have to use my phone on here too at nights bc I don't have a computer at home..lol it's hard!