burnt out on this :(

[MrsJoey]

Soooo im feelin burnt out on this deployment. its been over a year since hes been there and I just kinda…hit a wall with it. im over it,I want my husband home so bad I cant even stand it..and theres NOTHING I can do about it. it sucks! Id been doing well, been through hell and back with this deployment-but made it through,stayed strong and I just…want him home. Im tired of sleeping alone every single night, I miss him so bad I cant stand it, im tired of being a third wheel with all my friends and their SOs,just…over it.
Like I wish I could just go out with my friends, girls only. Don’t get me wrong I love their SOs but when Im surrounded by couples everytime I go out…it gets old! Ya know? I just need some girl time every now and then.
Joey tells me how proud he is of me,and how he knows its not easy and thanked me for hangin in there and of course stayin true to him (which is a given but you know he hears all the horror stories with girls from all the other guys-the girls that give us a bad rep!). im glad he sees its no cake walk for us back home. I just miss him.
And I don’t even know why im writing this post,ha. theres nothing I can do about it! sucks.

I just seriously miss him. I just want him home SO bad I can hardly stand it :(

[Spahr]

:bighug: hang in there girlie its almost over!!!! Love you!!!

[MrsJoey]

thanks girl-love YOU.
the thing that makes it worse is we have NO idea when hell be home..i know thats the army for ya...but when it comes to when he'll be HOME im like COME ON give us a break! lol
first they said september...then may...then june...august...now its back to september and it just stinks not knowing when and having something to look forward to/count down to ya know? sucha bummer. he was supposed to be OUT of the army in Feb. but got stop lossed so..hes still there.
if he came home in june id love it. LOVE it. im just not getting my hopes up :(

[snwalways41903]

aww hun im so sorry the army sucks at times, you are such a strong woman to handle everything you have handled through out your time away from him! its ok to cry and let it all out, i know its rough but just know he loves and misses you as much as your loving/missing him! maybe try talking to your friends and ask for a girls night out, (no guys) and maybe if you try and explain to them they might understand! good luck with everything hun im always thinking of you! if you ever need anything you know where to find me!! big hugs!!

[MrsJoey]

aw sherry,your post made me tear up a bit :( thanks for being so understanding. maybe i WILL ask for a girls-only night,i think itd do me some good.
you rock :)

[MrsJoey]

i feel like im always there for my friends,and there never really there for me. and it seriously sucks. its not often i reach out and ask for help...bc i dont wanna be a burden,and ive always been 'the strong one'.

i wish some of you gals lived closer to me :(

[Meredith]

Awe Kell! Army deployments are SOOO long. I know it's draining but keep hanging in there! You're doing awesome! I know it really sucks that your friends don't seem like they're there for you. Everyone assumes since you know what you got yourself into that you can handle it. And you CAN handle it but some support from them every now and then won't hurt. It sucks they're not there for you. Like Sherry said maybe telling them might make it better and if not you ALWAYS ALWAYS have us!!

Hang in there girl! Look how far you've come already!!

[MrsJoey]

ive heard from everyone that the last stretch is the worst, cause you know the end is coming and you just want it to get here already! im tryin not to think about it and be patient...im just ready for him to be here.

thanks mere :) you're always good about bein so sweet and cheerin me up! youre the best! and i know you've been there too, with the deployment junk-alot of us on here have!

i may send out an email to some girlfriends bein like 'hey, i need a girls night-girls ONLY!' and see if they get the memo lol. i called one friend last week to hangout and she brought her man....then had a weekend full of couples last weekend...just over it! it stinks being constantly reminded your're alone.

*SIGH* but im super super glad i have all you girls,who GET it :)

[Meredith]

Awe Kell! You're making me blush!!

I tried explaining to one of my girlfriends how being third wheel when you were engaged/married is worse. Cause you have someone to be with you but he can't be there and so you're alone when you shouldn't be....she didn't really get it but I know you will! I think a girls night memo would be good! I'd be there in a heartbeat to hang out if I didn't live in no mans land!!

When Mike and I got to the year mark it was REALLY hard. He had r&r sooo early that the end of deployment really took forever. (so not doing that this time!!) But the good news is as soon as it gets a little closer you're not going to have enough time to get ready! Between being excited and preparation for home coming he'll be in your arms before you can blink!!

[Lana]

Aw Kelly I'm right there with you. That wall is a tough one but I'll help you push it down and we'll do it together!! You are close, which is why this is suddenly hitting home because you want to sprint the last mile instead of walk like the last 11 months. So it's especially hard. But you'll get through this!

And if you ever need a girls night, I'm here. Believe me!

[ReginaCherie]

aw kel. hang in there its almost over. your so close. you should ask for a girls night out. everyone needs that every now and then!

[colleen]

:foryou: I'm sorry you are bummed out Kelly. I don't blame you, these deployments totally suck don't they?!! Like the others said you have come a long way and are a super strong chick and it's nice to hear hubby gave you appreciation for this too! I reallly really hope that he gets home sooner than later and the deployment is DONE with for you guys. The end is almost near, keep on truckin' hun!!


ps - I agree with the living closer to each other comment, I think it would be fabulous to be able to get together and be able to hug out our problems!:grouphug:

[Kathryn]

I know how you feel girly..expecially the whole girlfriends that have boyfriends and you being the third wheel..that's the problem I have and it def gets very old after awhile..that's why I normally just hang out with my guy friends now..they are really the only ones that are there for me..my girlfriends aren't...(but that's what I have yall for! :) )

Just hang in there..you've already gone so far and he will be back before you know it :)

[KristiMarie]

this sooo is not making me look forward to JM 15 month deployment...

[MrsJoey]

sorry if it upset you, im just burnt out on it.
its really not that bad, im sure youll be fine.

[ReginaCherie]

kel you amaze me. you are one hell of a woman! im sure you will make it through just fine.

[Christy]

Aww Banana Kelly! Keep your head up! It will be over soon!!! :bighug:

[Ignite06]

Aww Kel... I wish you would have mentioned a girls night out when i was in town.. i would have TOTALLY blown off my mother-in-law for you! I promise next time im in town, IM ALL YOURS for at least a whole day.. Well, me and chase that is lol! I promise that when i come into town, (and joey will be home) that you can bring me and chase as the third (and fourth) wheel! lol! Im sorry it made you sad! I love you and would NEVER try and do that to you! Im missing zack already, and he's not even gone yet. We have a date now... but its likely to change, go figure.. Im gonna need you for some support when he leaves since you've been through this part of the deployment already. When chase gets here he will cheer you right up is Joey's not home yet. and if you EVER decide you want to come to Germany to stay with me... your more than welcome. You can always drive down and see him on weekends when he gets back to Germany! I love you and am always praying for you and for joey to stay safe while he is still over there! Email anytime you want! I love you girl!

Pez Cab Luv's her Bad Sppy!