Laura
04-12-2009, 03:38 AM
im sorry ive been kinda mia lately
ladies i have been hella busy with finishing up
school and working 2 jobs aka lifes been one crazy biatch...
i got some news tonight that i didn't know where
to turn then i knew this was one of the best places
to come cuz well im not supposed to know and i
cant really talk to anyone about it cuz he doesn't know i know
i was working my last shift at work tonight and my
ex bf marks sister came in just bawling and in tears
i held her and hugged her and she said this isn't supposed
to happen he's only 21 and i asked her what happened and she pulled me to the back of the store and hugged me and said
if she told me i couldn't say a word to anyone .....
they think that mark has prostate cancer....
he's only 21!
i don't know how to feel about it...
she told me and i didn't know what to do
i didn't start crying...i just stared at her and zoned
out and sank to the floor with my hands on my head.....
it seems so unreal...
this isn't supposed to happen....
him and i starting talking about pry about a week
and a half ago and just talking like as in friends
not getting back together but ever since he has texted
me about every day to every other day just like hey whats
up how ya been whats going on....
marks sister said they are pretty sure he has it
but are running more tests on monday
they have already talked to him about depending on the
seriousness of it the types of treatment they will do...
if he has to do surgery and chemo they will bring him back
home here to south dakota to do it but
if he only has to go thru chemo they will do it down
there in georgia and she said that he if he
just has to go thru chemo he doesn't even want his family
down there....
he has no one down there....
all his family is from up here....
i just am so confused right now...it seems surreal
like im not even moving in time.......
why wouldnt he tell me himself all the times we've talked?
what am i supposed to do?
how am i supposed to feel??
why has this happened?
he's so young.....
its just not right....
:confused::confused::confused::confused::confused:
ladies i have been hella busy with finishing up
school and working 2 jobs aka lifes been one crazy biatch...
i got some news tonight that i didn't know where
to turn then i knew this was one of the best places
to come cuz well im not supposed to know and i
cant really talk to anyone about it cuz he doesn't know i know
i was working my last shift at work tonight and my
ex bf marks sister came in just bawling and in tears
i held her and hugged her and she said this isn't supposed
to happen he's only 21 and i asked her what happened and she pulled me to the back of the store and hugged me and said
if she told me i couldn't say a word to anyone .....
they think that mark has prostate cancer....
he's only 21!
i don't know how to feel about it...
she told me and i didn't know what to do
i didn't start crying...i just stared at her and zoned
out and sank to the floor with my hands on my head.....
it seems so unreal...
this isn't supposed to happen....
him and i starting talking about pry about a week
and a half ago and just talking like as in friends
not getting back together but ever since he has texted
me about every day to every other day just like hey whats
up how ya been whats going on....
marks sister said they are pretty sure he has it
but are running more tests on monday
they have already talked to him about depending on the
seriousness of it the types of treatment they will do...
if he has to do surgery and chemo they will bring him back
home here to south dakota to do it but
if he only has to go thru chemo they will do it down
there in georgia and she said that he if he
just has to go thru chemo he doesn't even want his family
down there....
he has no one down there....
all his family is from up here....
i just am so confused right now...it seems surreal
like im not even moving in time.......
why wouldnt he tell me himself all the times we've talked?
what am i supposed to do?
how am i supposed to feel??
why has this happened?
he's so young.....
its just not right....
:confused::confused::confused::confused::confused: